Grey is In....

This background is grey......
I don't want a pink blog as i'm not a 16 yr old girl.... black is so my style but not for blogs......i adore polka dots but the previous skin was a little old ....
I wanted to find a nice skin from blogskins.com but so many choices ...i don't know what to choose...so fucked all that excuses.....
this is it....

The weather is grey too.......maybe too much pollution.

The Sooner,The Better

Recently I have no appetite for anything.....
Eat sushi also don't feel happy.....Eat ice cream also sian.....
Eat chocolate also dun get me high......
And my memory is failing me also....most of the time I forgot about the hot coffee that I have in my cup ......untill i finally remember it's already cold......

I also can't sleep at night and it's not because of the many cups of cold coffee at night.

I think my dream is ending soon ,in fact i hope the sooner it ends, the better.I detest this kind of feelings.
I did not even want to try to realise that dream.....I have noting to lose right from the begining. So what's stopping me?I just dun want to make myself unhappy later on....

It 's just another bottomless pit for me to fall into....
I ponder over it to myself sometimes why is there a need for this unnecessary misery .
True enough .
快乐 是 选择

Ghost Whisperer

Finally got to sit down properly to watch a whole episode of the drama ''Ghost Whisperer''Episode 5 already mmmmh... just don't have the time to sit throughout for one hour on my friday nights.....

But it was an exceptionally good drama ,so much diffrent from the normal kind of shitty dramas....u know what i mean by shitty,like Lost, the forever Desperate Housewives and Charm and Smallville .....I missed Felicity ,Dharma & Greg ,That 70's Show and Cold Case.....

I like ''Ghost Whisperer'' cause it made me cry, at the same time it also gave my exhausted soul a little comfort.

The power of television is so great.I will tell you why.
I was somewhere near City Hall Mrt today and i saw 3 teenager boys....
OK teenage boys only......so what the heck is so special with them??
All 3 sported the same black ,oily ,very side-swept hair-do with their fringes plaster over half their oily faces.
And dashes of very dark eye-linered eyes peeping out from behid those oily fringes.....
They want to look like Paul Twohill !!!

Yuck man ! Who the hell is this Paul Twohill kid.But Great JOb! cause there's people who idolise him man! I dun even know how he sound like......
I really hope he win Singapore Idol 2006!
That way, he can join forces with Taufik Batisah aka the 7-11 guy....

I can see Paul's huge potential in the adventising arena, he can adventise for shampoo, eye liner,facial cleanser (for oily skin of course ),facial oil blotting paper and of course whitening toothpaste. Very promising future this one.....!!!
LOL.....

The one and only

FB is getting married early next year.He told me 2 weeks ago.I'm happy for him .Really ......At least he informed me about it.

I knew this day will eventually come .
But it's a little too soon.He agreed too.He told me he did not even have to propose to his girlfriend.

It is difficult to write about someone whom you are so close to and yet sometimes so far from.
So familiar and yet so distant.Never mind he is someone I will remember for the rest of my life.

The time I spend thinking about him was astounding and what matters is that i know he also think about me sometimes.....which is enough for my seldom sober and conscious mind.

I'm just glad that he was with me during this part of my life.

Bless you ,B
The very first and last FB I will ever have.